The Fear to Look Within / Till I Find

I wrote this song about a year ago during a time when I was finding it quite hard to sit still and just meditate (which I used to be quite GOOD at)! I was in a 10-day hermitage at the time, in a trailer at the Living Miracles Monastery in Utah, praying into what I would be doing next. After a few days had passed, I got somewhat frustrated with my lack of focus and decided I needed to be more vigilant with my mind. This song came out of that experience... it's called "Till I Find". (I've also shared some ideas from Course in Miracles that relate to this—read below). 💗

Awakening is a collaborative venture, and it takes a lot of trust to face the obstacles that inevitably arise. I feel like everyday is a huge adventure in going inward and looking... just looking... that's all we're really being asked to do. It seems difficult because we are afraid—terrified actually—of what we will see. We have believed the ego's lies which tell us that we are sinful, shameful, evil and ugly. And now the Holy Spirit is saying, "No, you're none of those things. In fact, you are 100% Holy, and you've never done anything wrong. It was all just a bad dream. But you'll never believe me unless you're willing to LOOK at what you believe about yourself. And if you look with me, you'll feel safe, and you'll be relieved to see that you were wrong."

Here's a song I wrote about my desire to look within and be vigilant with my mind in this regard. It's called "Till I Find". I invite you to join me in looking and resting within, with the help of our mutual Spiritual Comforter. Allow the fear to arise, but don't let it stop you from looking within, for this is the only way to be free of it. ❤

"The search for truth is but the honest searching out of everything that interferes with truth. Truth is. It can neither be lost nor sought nor found. It is there, wherever you are, being within you. Yet it can be recognized or unrecognized, real or false to you. If you hide it, it becomes unreal to you because you hid it and surrounded it with fear. Under each cornerstone of fear on which you have erected your insane system of belief, the truth lies hidden. Yet you cannot know this, for by hiding truth in fear, you see no reason to believe that the more you look at fear the less you see it, and the clearer what it conceals becomes." (ACIM, T-14.VII.2)

Upcoming Living Miracles events to support this inward journey of looking with the Holy Spirit: livingmiracles.org/events
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You can freely download a recording of this song here:
https://erikarchbold.bandcamp.com/track/till-i-find-live-on-spiri-tv-february-1-2019